Working Girl

I’ve been working part-time for about a month now.  Honestly, I think that going back to work has been one of the best things I could have done for my mental health.  I quit my job while I was pregnant due to how sick I was, and being back at work is like getting a […]

This One Gets a Trigger Warning

I didn’t mean to go there with this post, but once I started writing, some stuff came out, so please be warned that this post discusses suicidal thoughts and feelings.  If you’re reading this, please take care of yourself and do what you need to do to keep yourself safe.       My appointment […]

Tiny Progress

My next therapist appointment is a week from tomorrow, with someone new, AGAIN.  I’m getting really sick of rehashing everything that’s wrong in my life over and over again for a new stranger.  Really, really sick. But.  Some things are going okay.  I’m working again, and that’s a Big Deal.  When I was at my […]

The (Not-So) Great Therapist Hunt

I’m feeling maybe a little more even.  I’m almost afraid to post about it, like I might jinx myself, but I seem to be doing a little better.  I’m less sad.  I’m no longer crying for hours every day.  And I’m less angry.  I was so, so angry. Angry at the world, and angry at […]

Finally Out of Boxes

I’m trying to get settled into the new house.   It’s coming together, although more slowly than I would like.  Who knew that a 4-month-old plus crippling depression would interfere so much with making progress?  At least, as of today, we are officially no longer living out of boxes.  Things still feel a little messy […]

Can I Get Back Up?

The Move happened, and as I feared, it was not good for me.  I haven’t posted here in a while.  In that time, I have been so, so depressed.  Too depressed to write.   Too depressed to eat consistently.  I probably wouldn’t be eating at all if it weren’t for my husband, and for the fact […]

In Spite of, Not Because

Today on facebook, I saw one of those inspirational quotes that said “I am a strong woman because I was raised by a strong woman.”  Usually when I see things like that, I feel this little stab inside because I don’t feel that way about my mom at all.  Of course, lots of days I […]