Confession Time

So, I have a confession to make.  I was crazy before I got pregnant.  Not as crazy as I am now, but crazy.  My official diagnosis (since my early 20’s, maybe my late teens…I’m a terrible historian) is Bipolar II.  Things have gotten MUCH worse since the pregnancy, but I had the diagnosis before. I […]

Crooked Line

I’m trying so hard to remember that recovery is not a straight line.  I’ve worked with addicts in the past, and I can’t even count how many times I’ve said “recovery isn’t a straight line,” and “relapse is a part of recovery.”  It’s a lot harder to apply that wisdom to myself. I got sick […]

Anxiety

I have been so, so anxious the past few weeks.  I have lost 3 lbs in two weeks because I have been too anxious to eat.  I’ve had sleepless nights.  I’ve walked around feeling just plain terrified, and I’m not sure why. I mean I worry A LOT about all kinds of things…what will happen […]

This Is Grief

I’ve been feeling really down this week, after having a couple of weeks of feeling much better.  I had started to think that maybe I was out of the woods, until this week.  Then I spent the last 5 days feeling sad and tearful and grumpy, and my first thought was of course, “Oh god, […]

Solids

Baby has started on solids!  Well, rice cereal.  And we’re going to give her some pureed sweet potatoes later today.  She’s growing and changing and experiencing new things, and it is so exciting!  I mean, really exciting.  As in, I feel excited.  I feel excited for her, and I feel excited to be having this […]

Driving That (Sleep) Train

We’ve started thinking about sleep training.  Baby is almost 6 months old and she has us up multiple times per night, plus the hour-ish it takes us to get her to bed every evening.  We dread it, and honestly she doesn’t seem too happy with the situation either. When she was small and new, Baby […]